I love Papa. In my heart I would often dream of a stardust miracle sprinkling and bringing healing in every part of his frail body… then we can bring him home and we will give him a wonderful colorful party. He will eat again, laugh again, sing his favorite song “Stardust” and tell dozens of jokes that never fail to reap smiles from guests…
In January, the doctors told us that Papa’s heart is very weak and seems to be reaching its end. His other organs too are failing now. He could no longer eat and often he just closes his eyes. Only medications and frequent dialysis treatment sustain him.
I remember that once in his life, Papa received a wonderful miracle. It was in 1986 when he had a stroke and his body became paralyzed. In a touching moment of prayer, to his amazement and of many believers who witnessed, he was able to walk straight miraculously and was healed instantaneously. It was a beautiful experience that sparked an inspiration to share God’s glory to others.
I pray that the same miracle would touch Papa once again. But tears just fall almost every time I see him or think of him. But then again, God says, “Give thanks in all circumstances…”
Today I have decided to thank God for each day that Papa spends with us…
… for the times he says “Angelic” (the nickname he calls me) during the few moments that he would recognize me and then tell me that my birthday is nearing
…for the chance given to him to prepare spiritually through a good confession and the sacrament of the anointing
…for his own blissful surreal world where he would forget that he is in the hospital – and he would laugh, believing he was running after colorful bouncing balls, playing with his grandchildren and putting them to sleep, and eating all the delicious food he used to love
…for the cheerful times when he transforms back into a child once more, simply gets amazed at how a television works, and chuckles as he listens to fairytales
…for a good laugh when, after singing “Stardust” beside his bed to make him feel better, he would just say, “Doon ka na lang (sa upuan)”
…for allowing me and the whole family to love and serve him, uniting us in prayer and understanding
…for the grace that God gives our family to surrender to His will and receive overwhelming love from caring relatives and friends
…for the lessons being taught to us on love and the realization that love has to be expressed in every chance we have
Stardust is a song of lovers’ once happy memories… a song with a touch of gratefulness for treasured moments spent together... a song that reminds me to cherish each moment I have with Papa.
I still pray for a healing miracle… a prayer I say with a heart surrendering to the perfect will of God… and believing that He has the perfect answer to my prayer. Please pray with me. Please pray too for our family.